wah... tired. i jus realised dat my national day outing was lik e single longest break i've had frm studying. 12h! wow. ok i guess dat seems pretty meaningless but its quite significant to me. feeling really fatigued. life has been rather hectic. cant seem 2 find enough time 2 catch my breath. wen i do, i still got 2 study. but den again, workin hard does not guarantee success.

i suddenly realized dat i don really understand myself. if i did, i would not hav let my life get so messy n confusing. n e worst part is dat its not bout my studies. if only there is lik some kind of drug dat make u 4get specific things. maybe i should try hypnosis. haha.

lik huishan pointed out dat day in e library, i am weird. on that note, i would lik to say that although many of u (my frens) might think im lik very strong n sure of myself, i am not. that i am clear about. i don want to sound lik i am boasting but by nature, i am quite selfless. n trust me that is not good. i mean, i live 4 others. i draw satisfaction frm e response of others. so while i appreciate that many of u think i am approachable, i hav to say that it would help if you guys could lay off till aft my Os. cos im really not in e best of shape now.

n im not a genius. nor am i some talking, walking encyclopedia. so STOP assuming dat i always noe everything. i do agree dat i have a broad base of general knowledge but e only real reason u think i noe everything is cos its wad u decided, and its easy for you dis way. i never claimed to do so! in fact, i go round denying e fact! n u noe wads e WORST part?
I ACTUALLY GET BLAMED OR SCOLDED OR MOCKED AT WEN I DON HAV AN ANS!

that is some really fucked up mindset on the part of the idiot who actually blames me ( dis is dedicated to e few very horrible ppl who only know how to make me suffer).i mean come on. if anyone would just pay attention to the things around them, dey would not be so naive...

ok really tired now. sigh. guess i will postpone e even more wonderful facts of Dao Hui. otherwise i will die. bottom line, we all have our probs while i appreciate and while i thank u guys 4 ur various gestures, i aso have to let you know dat the real me is actually like a decomposing body in a closed ornate cupboard that is in an exhibit.